what an emotionless day. phone dead. had a difficult time getting myself to sleep last night. just gotta get used to that huhh.

emo stuff aside. went for ndp preview today. yeah i did wear red. but i couldnt be bothered to dress up. ended up looking like shit or worst. the 'cheer leaders' or whatever you call them. motivators? they are fucking irritating. and they said they're paid? then go pick up litters and clean my butt lah. stand there to block peoples' view only. irritants. oh. and fat too. and i hate hate hate singers that lip sync. it's so waste our time. i enjoyed listening to the opera singers though. live singing. really goosebumptic. OH and i saw my clarinet tutor. he played for ndp! with SSO. i miss that old man. although i know he hates me to the deepest core. sorry for not practicing! the parachuters were amazing. see them fly down. i felt so glory glory. and they showcase our defence stuff. so glory glory mangali. hey strider! glory rhymes with mangali too! no jiawei dont sidetrack. the finale. fireworks. it's their ultimate. i had ten mins of orgasm looking at it. (people have an hour plus orgasm looking at me) but then. watching the fireworks go off. makes me feel. uneasy. being single. loveless. watching it alone. although i was there with the lollipops. but it really made me quite emotional. i just sat there silently watching the fireworks blasting away. beautiful sight. depressing heart.


colourless life of mine.
i'll just let it die.

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